feeling stressed out but i can't do anything.
at times i don't think i'm a good enough person.
why?
everything that goes on in the day is enough proof to show.
i don't know.
i don't have the determination to do anything.
exams are just around the corner.
and here i am, doing absolutely nothing.
i don't wanna be anyone's disappointment.
especially mommy.
if only i can just throw away all my awful habits.
be a much better person and all.
all i wanna do now is get a glass of hot milo, curl up with a book and then hide under my covers.
hide where no one can ever find me.
hide somewhere where i don't have to please anyone but me.
selfish, i know.
but it sounds mighty appealing right now.
it is times like these that makes me wish i have someone who i can run to during my saddest moments.
someone who will play dress up with me like this to release stress and tension.
and of course, no one plays like that with me. lol. i think they think i'm weird for wanting to play boxer man and undie man. eeekkkkk....i want a someone!! a 'someone' who is mineminemine!!
no one else's but mineminemine!!!
mmmmmmiiiiiinnnnneeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
bear in mind people, there is no special someone.
this someone i'm talking about is someone special who is still unknown to me.
so while i sit in this chair in my jammies,
i pray and pray and pray till i can pray no more for someone to come into my life again.
and make me feel special and loved again.
xoxo.
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