without suffering there'd be no compassion.

my family. weird as they are, we're still family.
after all, blood is thicker than water.
top L-R : derek ( korkor ), my sister, lengleng ( cousin ), chris ( in black, also cousin ), keikei ( in front of her ), and me.
bottom L-R : we call him 'didi' meaning younger bro in chinese ( also cousin ), my dear mommy, ah chai yiyi ( aunty ), ee liao (uncle ), ah gu (uncle ), ah kim ( aunty ), and kai ma ( ah kim's sister ).
we're all a family. and those weird words are their thingy. haha. like jiejie means sister.
you get what i mean. if you don't, go jump off a cliff now.
thank you.

without suffering, there'd be no compassion.

what does happiness mean to some?
to some, it means living in luxury, wealth,
and if possible, prosper without moving that huge beer belly.
weird humour.
you can't blame me.
i'm not in the mood to be layaning good humour now.

how can i let my mother be happy without being too selfish?
sacrifice?
it seems to me, that without one person suffering, there'd be no happiness.
as the saying above goes, there'd be no compassion without suffering.
i want my mother to be happy.
i really do.

maybe, with time,
i might be able to see what she's doing clearly.
with clear eyes and a clear head.
not behind a veil.
maybe, with time,
i might be able to accept everything that goes on and whatever will happen.

maybe.

for the record,
mommy,
i love you and i want you to be happy.

xoxo