broken butterflies.

sometimes i wish that i could just reach up to the butterfly and leave with it.

leaving a place that is filled with insecurity and there is absolutely nothing worth taking along.

why are people so laden down with insecurity that it brings unwanted problems to their relationship with their loved ones?

isn't trust enough?

nothing is worth destroying things over.

unless you have a goddamn good reason for it.

wtfbbqporkchop. i just get a computer today and got all hyped up by it.

only to have the happiness punctured over a stupid reason.

so, school started and i am so not eager for classes to start.

my bloody classroom has been moved all the way to Block D.

yes! Block D!! so far away from the canteen to the extent where i can't sneak to the canteen to buy chipsmore and other snacks. ishh!!~

and i skipped school today. lol.

and its only the second day. :D

but i had a reason okay???

wednesday night, i was attacked by some weird thingy that made my stomach cramp up.

in school, i was all uncomfortable and had the chills.

early next morning, i had a bout of nauseaness and the horrible cramps returned.

worse still, they were period cramps and my period isn't even here.

i can't even pee without feeling pain in my lower back and on the side of my body.

i stood under the hot shower.

the warm water unknotting the tensed muscles.

the familiar scent of my body soap calmed down the nerves.

i felt better and went back to sleep.

today, in the afternoon, hung out with sofia and ayu.

god. i haven't seen them in ages.

its so good to see them! :D

got a haircut.

i think i look okay. lol.

i think i was a little too harsh on my shiang today.

but the cramps weren't making anything easier.

until now, i'm alternating between bouts of cramps and headaches.

sigh... i'm becoming the unfriendly and unloving person again.

going to go to bed. i don't like today.

night night.

byebye.