it sucks when you wake up to a tummy ache but there's nothing to expel out of the tummy. sigh..
it sucks to have a malfunctioning nose. ):
it sucks when your mother only talks to you when she needs something done. last night, for example, i knew she was still not happy about the whole leaving-the-food-outside-and-attracting-ants issue. so, she didn't call me for one whole day to check on things. then i called her to tell her that i was going to 1utama around 8.15 to check on promoters and then do closing for them and then after that, fetch my sister home. her phone was engaged. then fine. i went off on my merry way because that's how things have always been anyway. then, she called me, i didn't pick up at first because i was driving. when i was at the traffic light, she called again and i answered her and she was so not happy about the fact that i didn't answer the first phone call and was talking really loudly on the other end. so we were sort of talking to each other with raised voices. and then, in the end, in a very nice and sweet and friendly tone, she said, 'can you go fetch *cousin* on your way home?' i was like wtf in my head and 'yeah okay whatever' to her. and then, (then!) she went and picked *cousin*herself and didn't bother telling me. so, whatever, miscommunication or whatever it is. at home, when i talk to her and when *cousin* talks to her, she was like two different beings. she looks like she's very angry with me and very happy with *cousin*. when she goes out with *cousin*, she's happy and talks to her alot. family issues and whatnots. when she's out with me or my sister, she keeps quiet and rarely talks. so, me and my sister has to dig for the family issues instead of her just telling it to us like she does to *cousin* or whoever. and when i confront her about this, she doesn't say anything. its screwed up, you know? other people know how upset or troubled your own mother is and you don't. to them, *cousin* is like an angel who can do no wrong. she's more naive than most girls i know and would say (very loudly) 'why must sit outside? yerr! all the people here smoke, damn smelly la!' and everyone in the vicinity would look at us. and then, she calls my boyfriend 'stupid' when he doesn't get her the things she need. i told my mom about this and all my mom can say is, '*cousin* manja with you all only ma.' or, 'she lives in a small town la. cannot blame her la.' its fucking screwed up you know?? and mom chides me and my sister when we use the word, 'damn', 'bitch', and the softer vulgar words. when miss goody two shoes uses it, its totally fine. and she emphasizes on each word you know?
i can go on and on about the things that she does to piss me off. but i won't because it makes me look childish. i should just live and let live. whatever. just woken up and i'm already so pissed off. not good for health. i'm going to go eat now. bye! (:
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