Having envy for those who have lived lives better than mine is really pointless. But there are times when one just can't help envying(is it spelled correctly?-_-) others. How others have made friendships who survived the primary and secondary schooling days, how others have made a name in their respective schools, how some people made their name through studies, looks, personalities, et cetera. How some people who are cheerleaders who can do amazing stunts. How some people can dance so well. How some people belong, unconditionally. How some people who doesn't have the look that they're good in anything but when they try, they somehow have this darn hidden talent. I was also never the pretty one. As a matter of fact, I am ugly. I am fat. I have a big bum and a face that annoys people. Some people even think I'm something just because of how I look. I was never one of those who people go, 'oh Carol. She's good at ___(insert anything here).' I was never one of those who were good in anything. I was average in some subjects, I joined cheerleading because my sports team needed people, i joined dance because I really liked it. I have no hidden talent whatsoever. -__- I was never good at anything.
At times I feel like I don't have a complete school life. I have never organised anything, I have never shown exeptional talent in whatever I try my hand at, etc. You get the drift.
I really wish that I can be good at something.
Sometimes I think that I am not a good enough friend as well. T__T
Sometimes the mere thought of it drives me
And in a matter of a few days, pfftt. not even a few. In just two days. I'll be leaving the safe comforts of my home to a home in Setapak for the next 2 years. Sigh.. I'll miss my mommy and sister and doggie. And in some ways, I'll miss my dad.
Don't mind me. I am just feeling emotional from a cranked up nose and an imcomplete life. T___T *sobs
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