Now that I'm Losing Hope

There is always a point in someone's life when they're tired of everything and hate everything. Including music. Who hates music? Yeah. I know. I think I'm at that point. Right now. This very minute. I was upset about something. I don't know what. All I know was that on the drive home, I really needed a fix or something. I needed Avenged Sevenfold. I needed Paramore. I needed Cradle of Filth. I needed sad songs. I needed loud songs. And all I get are Mariah Carey's 'Always be My Baby', Jordin Sparks 'One Fucking Step At A Time', Rihanna's 'Rehab' and 'Live your Stupid Life'. Fucking annoying. -____________-

I feel like an empty shell of a miserable person who has absolutely no life, hates everything and everyone. Hates eating and sleeping. Hates smoking. Hates laughter, fun, smiles. Hates scowls, frowns, sarcasm. Which says alot since I use sarcasm on a daily basis. In other words, hates life. But then there are also times where I love absolutely everything. But right now, I hate everything. And for the record, I like smoking. Takes away alot of things.

Paramore's 'Pressure' is on repeat in Youtube. I need songs like these to clear away all the horrible flashbacks of the radio when it's being a bitch. When one radio station airs a stupid, ridiculous song, all the other stations air other stupid songs. When one airs a nice and wonderful song, then only the others air nice songs. It's like they have some telepathic communication going on or something wtf. -____________________- Sadly, the headphones in this cc isn't the type that blocks out all other sounds. I can hear all those people behind me cursing and shouting.

Sorry, this post contains so much more vulgarity than necessary.