dragonflies.

i have this mini garden upstairs.
and it looks just like this.
and mommy was cleaning out the fish bowl or tank or pond or whatever you call it.
i'm cracking my brain open just thinking of what you call it.
so anyways, mommy found a baby dragonfly in there!
it looks quite adorable.
its looks like an adult dragonfly.
only its smaller and wing-less.
(:
mother nature is just amazing.
i know i sound like a tree-hugger right now.
but it feels nice to see that nice and pretty things exist around us when the world's so fucked up.

all right.
i think i'm just in my tree-hugger mode.
so?
bite me!
ngehehehehehhe-

hmmm..
had mcdonalds for dinner.
again.
and its bad cos i think i had it for lunch somewhere earlier in the week.
uuurrrggghhh...
my thighs are so huge right now.
see this pic?
its taken after i went through my recent break up.
and my thighs were absolutely gorgeous.
if i may say so myself.
(:
they really became skinnier because i lived on nothing except coke, maybe 5 pieces of fries a day, countless dunhill cigarettes and water.
i don't know.
call me crazy.
but i seriously miss the fact that my thighs slimmed down.
lol.
the shorts that i was wearing used to be fitting and sometimes tight around the thighs.
and during that one week, they were loose.
and no, they didn't expand.
it usually shrinks everytime i take it out of the washer.
and when i wore it straight, they were loose!
i was so happy!!
and then, i don't know.
i think i got too hungry,
and maybe i don't have the will power of a person who is really intent on losing weight.
and i started eating.
really eating.
there was a week where i had mcdonalds 3 or 4 times.
and all in large sets.
sigh..
and i got fat again.
if possible, fatter.
uuurrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhh.....................
i hate myself for being so weak.
and yes, i had mcdonalds.
again.
for dinner just now.
and damn they taste good.
uuuurrrhhhh....
yes!
the goddamn nuggets set!
anyone who hangs out with me in mcdonalds would know i'm absolutely head over heels with this stuff.
and no, the fries box isn't empty.
i ate half of them already.
so i promise myself.
i'll only have mcdonalds once a week.
and if i do go there to lepak,
i'll just buy a regular coke.
ONLY!
really.
i promise.
(:

so, school.
it starts tomorrow.
ish.
i had to cut my nails.
they're short now.
IN YOUR FACE YOU PREFECTS!!
except charlotte.
lol.
(:
love her.
i love it when my nails are long because they make my fingers look longer.
and when my nails are short,
they make my fingers look weird.
lol.

so, nothing much happened today.
ah well.
i'll go off now.
taa!!~

xoxo,
me <3