degrading

just so i could play the role of a loving daughter who goes out for breakfast with her mom, i only (only! -_-) had 6 hours of sleep. and i had to endure my grandmother who likes to make herself look like the victim to everything we say.

you know how chinese people are with their superstitions? well, you know the superstition about how you should never sit at the corner of a table? yeah. she sat there, and i told her to sit in a little bit because its dangerous for her lady her age to sit at the corner of the table next to the sidewalk. what if she lost her footing and fell down? she'd hit the sidewalk. what's more, her legs are not really in the condition to hold her up for long. so, i told her to sit in a little. and she said, 'its okay! i'm old already!' what does being old have to do with me asking you to sit in? -_- my mother just had an argument with her beforehand. so, she was rather pissed when my grandmother tried to play her games with us. but, we didn't bother. since you want to sit in the corner, fine la. i did my part in asking you to sit in but you refused. so there.

my mother, on the other hand, isn't so patient with her anymore. see, my grandmother used to condemn my mom, sister and i for being catholics. saying how we're praying to the devil. whatever la. like i care what she says. its what i believe in that matters right? right. she also didn't want my mother to get baptised when she was younger. so my mom did it behind her back. very rebellious. but anyway, after so many years of being a buddhist, my grandmother has finally gotten herself converted and baptised. and now, she condems the buddhist saying that they're praying to the devil. i mean, what is this la? damn fickle right? she got herself into a whole lot of problems with my relatives who were buddhists. and it all comes down to the same thing. every religion is the same. they tell you to be good, honest people. they teach you good things. is there a religion that tells and encourages you to do bad stuff? i don't think so. maybe there is, but i don't intend to find out. so, sometimes my grandmother does offend people. and at times, she does it on purpose. pffftt.

i never liked it when my grandmother compares us to our cousins. it pisses me off. sometimes, its not that i don't try to understand or love her. but when she starts doing things that pisses everyone off, everyone just chooses to ignore her. because they know whatever they say will somehow unleash everything my grandmother is holding inside her. and they'll end up arguing and my uncles and aunties would look like the bad ones for arguing with their mother. 'taat kepada ibu bapa' right?

why are some people so bitter? can't they just leave whatever that's bothering them and just move on? grr. i never liked it when people like playing the victim. my grandmother has done a whole lot of awful things to degrade people. i just hope that she realises it before she does anything more horrible.

alrighty. gotta go fetch the sister to work and then come home, sleep for a while, and get ready for my work. hurhhh... -______-'' i am so not looking forward to work today. dead tired. ):

byebye.